#seriously tho I volunteered for a year at a childrens helpline and also had like 5 months of training previous to that

[sleepis4theweak]

Alr, before I say anything I just want you to know that you're an awesome person and tysm for letting me talk ab it

Basically, today I had a lot motivation to do a lot of stuff

And a lot of new stuff

I was actually kinda happy and excited

And then somehow everything went downhill,

Like, I tried to find some information about my country's sign language (I just thought about learning something new! :D

And it's even better cuz this time it's actually useful and it helps ppl!)

But I couldn't, I really, really searched a lot but the only thing I saw was ASL, nothing else (idk, I might try to learn that)

And then after that I was planning on writing something but all my motivation just fucking vaporized or sm

So after that, I tried editing some videos but my mind just couldn't focus

And this whole day was just a mess, and this week is just gonna be worse cuz my only friend is leaving the country for a week

I have so many things in my head but then when I want to focus just on one it feel blank

This is so annoying, but I fucking hate it

And normally it would happen like 4 times a week but now it's happening every day and I can't even catch a brake

Well, I hope you don't mind ab me venting a lil

I though that venting ab lil things would be better instead of huge things

It makes it better for the person listening (not too much pressure) and it takes a weight off my shoulders

Stay safe, luv ya

And tysm for listening/reading it means a lot to me <33

Yeah I completely get that.

I remember a lot of time in which I wanted to start a lot of stuff (not unusual for me) and was mentally ready to do it (much more unusual for me) and then one thing happens and all of the sudden my motivation TANKS.

And then your day is just... ruined. And it sucks.

I also hear you about the being unable to focus on one thing, but having so much you want to do. Its like decision paralysis, idk. Like being unable to do one thing because of the other things but then never getting anywhere (idk if I'm explaining this well...or if I'm thinking of the same thing you are).

Moral of the story: That SUCKS. And it sounds like its something that has been really bugging you.

I don't mind you venting at all! And also I'm glad that being able to vent takes a weight off your shoulders, no matter how small.

And also don't worry at all about putting pressure on me as the person listening, I promise you I do not mind. I used to work on a helpline, so I listened to people talk about a lot of things- from bad tests to things like suic*de. I know (and have been trained) to listen to people and then be able to detach myself from it, so that I don't feel that weight.

If you wanna rant, I'm here to listen <3.

You stay safe too, and thank you for sharing! And I love you too <3